how is it so that wherever you are, that is where the person that is right for you will be? 305 million people in the U.S and 6,661,000,000 in the world and the woman that is right for me will be somewhere in my area, how the fuck is that possible, the odds do not play out there. Now ok lets say the woman in your area is a IDK 87% compatible match, then IDK it bugs me to no end to think of well someone who is a perfect match for me, or even just 1% more compatible with me is somewhere else in this world. I feel like well then why am I with this girl, and then will it really work out til the end?
and to repeat the same thing again in a slightly different way (sorry this was pulled from old blogs, but I didn't get enough feedback on them, hope this works out well)
there are approximately 305 million people in the United States, what are the chance that my perfect woman, the woman meant for me, the one I should marry is somehow going to magically be within my current living area no matter where I move? this bugs the hell of of me, what is the person you do find is 92% compatible with you and "perfect for you", but let's say there is another woman , and this woman is 98% compatible and "perfect for you" but she lives in California (I live in NY BTW), then what is the fucking pointof being with the 92% woman. This also goes with another problem/question which is how the hell do you know who to pick when dating and eventually trying to find a wife. I think the dating system is broken, and IDK how it can be fixed, but really going to go through all that effort for shit not to work out, and it is never pretty, if not for both sides at least for one, I hate causing people pain, and I really like to avoid pain as much as possible myself, I have had enough for now.
on the same theme, friends, who is to say that the friends you have and make NEAR YOU are the right people for you to be in your life and to support you how real/true/great friends do. This one may be even a bigger issue for me than the whole dating thing (and marriage). Besides only 1 of my RL friends, who in the long end many year later also fell apart. None of my RL friends have ever been what I would call great friends, in fact most of them weren’t even worthy of the title friend, more like frienemy, but even that is too kind. What I am getting at is your perfect friend could be on the other side of the world, I know mine is. My friend Kate has been a better friend (and person for that matter) to me than all my friends put together, and most of my family. I would die for her, and she would most likely do the same thing me. As you may know there are not many people I would die for, especially when it comes to any of my friends past or present. Even my best friend since I was 5 I would say I would die for him, but knowing myself when it comes down to jumping in front of a bullet, there is a good chance I would not, that said for some odd stupid fucked up reason, I would still take a bullet for his sister. So anyway I believe that reality lines up with math here, and that the real people that u r compatible with and that u belong with in life, are all not conveniently right by you, but spread out all over the world. Thank God for the internet to make it easier for these people to finally connect with one another. Sure there were Penpals, but that was like the lottery, picking the right Penpal and being lucky enough to like them enough to share anything with them. Now a question arises unfortunately when it comes to online friends. There is a problem with it, which is maybe the reason I get along so well with many of my online friends is b/c we do not have the face to face physical interaction and day through day activities that friends do together. Even if you call the person (only did that with one person, 2 soon enough (sorry Kate), you are still missing a big part of that person. The closet one can get to RL is a video to video conference call/chat, but still too much is missing from the RL friend experience. Now that said, from everything I know about my friend Kate, while my opinion of her my slightly change in person, and her opinion of me probably a lot more, I believe/know! that in the real world and RL we would still be great friends, and if any problems ever did crop up, people like us could work/talk it out. Something I know I couldn’t do with 98% of my friends I have ever had in RL. I should also mention my friend scott who is more awesome than 94% of all my friends I have ever had in RL, and we only disagree about the small stuff.
Also realize that my close online friends and I talk more in a week then some friend throughout real life will talk in 4 months, this means something, but I am not sure what. The thing is, could u talk to your RL friends that much without being sick of them and wanting to run away? there are about hmm 5 to 8 myspace friends (again from an old blog, u can replace Myspace with facebook if you wish) I have that if I had the fuckin’ time in life, I would not mind chatting with them 24/7, no joke, and 4 of them I could strongly suggest that I would be able to do the same face to face, kind of like my ex best friend Zack, who as long as we were together, we never ran out of shit to talk about.